The weekend is over; tomorrow is the start of a new week. Lets see if I can keep my sh*t together for another week. I am feeling alright, right now, but I think that by 8 tomorrow things will probably be very different. Its funny how our jobs overtake us and rule our lives. For me, I need my job to pay the bills that allow me to live as I do. But I often think of "chucking it all in", running away, starting over; maybe somewhere else, like Costa Rica, somewhere that is not here. I know its not the answer, but is this all there is... work, work, work, bills, an all to short weekend and then more work. There doesn't seem to be much point, does there?

I'm reminded of Ecclesiastes < Meaningless! Meaningless! Utterly meaningless! Everything is meaningless. > I find this a very interesting book, one of my most read. I'm really not sure of its intent, its supposed to turn us to God. But It always leaves me wondering, Why? I guess I'm missing something. The book concludes by saying < fear God and keep His commandments... for God will bring every deed into judgement >. Wow, thats comforting (not, what about right now? how long do we wait for this judgement); I think the teacher had it right when he said < This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.>

I'm sure that my comments will offend someone but... blind faith, what kinda crap is that? If i can't question, and expect a rational answer... Then what? Isn't that how the radicals are born 'ask no questions, just strap this explosive to your chest...' Well not me. I will continue to ask questions, even though I'm not getting an answer. I will not just accept blindly.

I think I've said enough for now. (if God is all He is made out to be, then maybe He will chat with me before my next post.)

Time, gentlemen, please.